You have learned about your personality type, now let's have a look at the love style.
Here is the analysis:

Sometimes, its scary how you discover yourself through quizzes.

I just only wanted to be a normal girl.
With normal friends and a normal family.
A normal lover with a normal relationship.

I don't need this drama shit screwing my life now.
Give me my normal life back.
Give me back my laughter, my smiles and my sunshine.
Why is life so ironic.
When you have a normal life you wished for something more.
But when you get something bloody unexpected,
you bloody wished that it never happened at all.

I don't know how to do this.
And I don't know how to carry on.
How can I act normal when everything is not?
When people around me are hurting and upset and
I don't know what to say to them.
I don't know how to give life meaning to someone who has lost it.
And I don't know how to make everything alright again.

One more good reason to jump infront of the speeding car.
I'm just a useless girl, always thinking about herself and not for other people.
Yes Yingzhuang, how many times have your mum told you that before?
Oh no, not the useless part, but always just thinking about yourself.
But I really don't know what to do, mummy.
I'm so sorry I failed you.
I can only act strong for you.

* In the end, its always you whom I want to turn to... *

* I miss your shoulders *

School's been hectic with assignments and projects. I've just had my presentation on Monday, which thankfully went well! Our topic was on communication breakdown in relationships (hurhur), and since it was an interesting topic we got most of our viewers attention haha. I learnt new facts myself, like it's natural for men to not want to talk and natural for women to just spill her problems out. It'll be fun trying to observe people around you doing exactly what the facts claimed to be. Lols.

On Wednesday, the Soka University students we visited in Japan came down to NTU~ I got to meet my friend who gave me a tour in Soka Uni! (: Haha yes of course there were eye candies but of course they will only remain as eye candies. One day only leh. Wuwu~

Picture~


After class, I met up with aiai to have our emo-outing dinner. And yesh, we really emo-ed while we ate. lol. Hmm, we went to this expensive korean place at JP but it was really nice! We ordered Sirlion BBQ and Ginseng Chicken, which added up to about 50bucks? But it was totally worth it. It satisfied our emo. lololol. After which aiai went to study awhile at Starbucks before we headed to CCK.

drooooool (*p*)

ginseng chicken, just as delicious

Oh, my zilian genes flared up at Starbucks. Hurhur =X

aiai studying. haha


It has been a looooong time since I jubeated! We didn't play much cause it was late, but at least I got to touch the machine XD
And I played a round of PIU with celine, and my legs immediately got wobbly after that. Unfit liao. Tsk.

On Thursday, I went to JP before my Jap Class (my 2 hour break) and played arcade for awhile. It was just too tempting. Lol. I met Joan there! Haha its kinda weird that we're both in NTU but I don't get to see her while I get to see her in JP... oh well random thought.
Jap class was fun hehe. I introduced to my class about the 陣内智則 (Jinnai Tomonori) comedy show Lain introduced to me on youtube :D My teacher actually let me use the computer to go youtube and find the video, so cool right! Everybody laughed, including my sensei XD I love my Jap class <3>
If you guys are interested (of which I highly recommended to watch), here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZiNGwLTjaA


After school I went to JP to find Kint~ we played a few rounds of jubeat and in order to save money, went out of the arcade LOL. We ended up buying curry puff and talking crap before I headed back home and he went back camp. We got the shock of our lives when we were at the entrance and boom crash THUNDER. Heavy rain. I hurt my ankle that day (it was bleeding) and I didn't relish walking home in the rain. So I called my dad to pick me up from Clementi hehe. Thanks Kint for lending me your phone haha (mine had no more battery). Kint was quite happy that he could go back camp late. Rofl.

Well. I'm also getting addicted to audition again. Omg, which is really bad cause i have to study! I also realised my best playing time is the moment I wake up. This morning before I went to work, I hit my high score of 759k and 700plus perfs (for the first time!) for TP BU. Then someone signed in and the pop up made me miss !$#@$#@$!#@. Nvm. I will conquer it soon! Muahahaha.

Let me end with a SS of chio ~XIN~. LOL


*Why does it hurt more after I say goodbye?*

'Joke' of the day:

キレイにすればするほど　汚くなるものは雑巾
では、消そうとすればするほど　増えていくものって何？
To make something dirty clean, you use a cloth to wipe it.
So, in trying to make something disappear, what will add up?

愛してはいけない人への切ない想い・・・
The painful memories of someone you shouldn't love...

Then again, should I have posted this up? rofl. To think I got this from a Jap comedy show =x

I don't know if I should be adknowledging this.
Somehow, I refuse to adknowledge it myself.

I've said farewell, once again.
I'm sorry for what happened till now...
Sorry for not being able to treasure what we shared.
Sorry for giving up everything.
Sorry for not being strong enough to hold on.
ごめんなさい。

There's nothing more I can give you other than memories.
If only 14.12.2008 lasted forever.
鈴音
大好きだよ。
今までありがとう。
さようなら。

I have an important announcement to make.

As of now, I am no longer part of zigang.

This is done out of my own wish and will.

Zibei will officially pull out from zigang.

You make me want to run away from you,
yet run back to you at the same time.

Cause I figured,
even though we're miles apart,
we're still standing on the same soil,
watching the same moon,
feeling the warmth from the same sun,
and breathing the same air.

I'm sad not because I miss you,
but because I miss you and yet we can't be together.
Don't say you can't promise me anything.
Just say you won't promise me anything.
It'll make life easier for me.
The memories we made together...
whether good or bad...
everthing,
it will always live in me.
Always.

I don't know what to choose. I want to run away from everything. I don't want to choose. If I can't have both, I'll rather have neither. I don't want to live with the regret that I've chosen something, and regret what I've lost on what I've let go of. Because I've already let you go once, and look what we are now. If... I really throw everything away, I'll become an empty shell.
I'm sorry for being so selfish.

Living in memories always isn't enough.
I'm sure a part of me already died along with you.
*언제나 lain 함께*

*gone crazy over love*

On 20th Feb, we had this impromtu celebration for Jojo at my house! :D
Yesssssh, I walked all the way to Rail Mall to buy an oreo cheeze cake for Jojo! Hehe. I'm such a nice friend right =p. It was supposed to only be a DDR session, but I guess some things are better left impromtu. You should have seen Jojo's face when me and shan were discussing with dek on the phone if we should buy a cake. Hahaha!
But of course, I know you guys just want pictures.

Jojo's Wii character dancing DDR LOL.
Oreo Cheezecake!!! *p*
bluish jojo
jojo and me! ;D
inspecting the candle wax
shan corn jojo. interesting pic yeh? xD
lololol the hard cake!
earthquakeeee! -crack-


Around 5pm all of them went back. Jojo was meeting her other friends, Corn had tuition and Shan went home (or maybe scandal with corn xD). Aiai came over after school. She played DDR awhile before we made our way to Rail Mall for dinner! We had our tmm walk there~

Aiai didn't know which shop to eat at so I suggested Ramen Ramen. It's something like Ajisen but its more niche. Anyway, we ordered Ramen Ramen Ramen (LOLOLOL) cause it was like half price. Wooo~ and the soup base is unique! Together with my Plum Soda, it was a fufilling meal. Hehe. Of course, nothing is better than having aiai to talk to <3>


Aiai wasn't satisfied with just a bowl of ramen o.o I went to buy prata for my dad then she ordered 2 gosongs also! Wah. Aiai how come you still so thin? T___T


Lol anyway I'm working now. And just now infront of me two kids, a boy and a girl, were talking. The girl came to get a sweet from me (I'm the sweet supplier here -.-) then the boy was behind. After that...

Boy: I want to go toilet.
Girl: Then go luh.
Boy: Go with me leh.
Girl: I dun wan go~!
Boy: Go lahhh~
*off they went to the toilet*

LOL. Too be young again. Hurhurhur. Luckily they're only 7 years old if not I'll be thinking... off. LOL. tsktsk~~~

*Why is it that after so long this feeling did not cease... but heightened instead?*

「Last Song」
Gackt

あてもなく一人さまよい歩き続けた
かすかな吐息をただ白く染めて
移り変わりゆく季節のその儚さに
理由もなく涙がこぼれた
「今も愛してる・・・」

降り続く悲しみは真っ白な雪に変わる
ずっと空を見上げてた
この身体が消える前に今願いが届くのなら
もう一度強く抱きしめて

解り合えなくて何度もキズつけていた
そんな時でもいつも優しくて
ふいに渡された指輪に刻まれていた
ふたりの約束は叶わないままに
「今も憶えている・・・」

遠ざかる思い出はいつまでも眩しすぎて
もっと側に居たかった
もう二度と会えないけどいつも側で支えてくれた
あなただけは変わらないでいて

最後に見せた涙が消せなくて

この白い雪たちと　一緒に消えてしまっても
あなたの心の中にずっと咲いていたいから

寄りそって抱き合った温もりは忘れないでね
違う誰かを愛しても
最後に聞いたあなたの声をこのままずっと話さないまま
深く眠り落ちたい
降り続く悲しみは真っ白な雪に変わる
ずっと空を見上げてた
この身体が消える前に今願いが届くのなら
もう一度強く抱きしめ

「もう一度強く抱きしめて・・・」


Walking around aimlessly by myself Breathing a faint sigh, my breath turns white Seasons change, and in this fleeting season... My tears fall for no reason "Even now, I still love you..." Falling sadness transforms into pure white snow I'm always looking at the sky above me Before this body disappears, I want to reach the wish I have now Once more, I want to hold you How many times have we not understood and hurt each other But even at those times, we were still gentle Engraved on the ring that you suddenly gave back to me... Was our promise that will never come true "Even now, I remember..." These far off thoughts are just brilliant flashes in my memory I wanted to be next to you Even though I can't see you anymore, I'll always be next to you I never want you to change I can't erase those last tears that you showed me (from my memory)In your heart, if I disappear along with all these snowflakes I want to bloom (in your heart once again) Don't forget the warmth of our hugs, of us being close together Don't forget even if you love someone else I'll never let go (of the memory) of when I heard your voice last and so... I just want to fall into a deep sleep Continuously falling sadness transforms into pure white snow I'm always looking at the sky above me Before this body disappears, I want to reach the wish I have now I want to hold you once more

"I want to hold you once more"

「失恋」
iyiyim

一人ぼっちの部屋で　ひざを抱え泣いてる
小さくなれば痛みも　小さくなるような気がした
誰にも会いたくない　何も聞きたくないよ
涙でくしゃくしゃな顔　誰にもみ見せられないよ

あなたを失くして　泣いて泣いて
写真を破って　泣いて
声を枯れるほど　泣いて泣きじゃくって
あなたを忘れたいよ

窓の外は晴れてて　憎たらしいくらいよ
この部屋だけ昨日のまま　あなたの想い出だらけ

真夜中でも「会いたい」と言えば　すぐ会いに来てくれたね
息切らした　真っ赤な顔を　今も覚えてる

あなたを想って　泣いて泣いて
温もり辿って　泣いて
涙枯れるほど　泣いて泣きじゃくって
あなたを　忘れたいよ

息が詰まるほど　泣いて泣いて
想い出に変わるまで　泣いて
涙と一緒に　すべて流したいの
あなたを　忘れるため
あなたを　忘れるため

视听：http://www.geneon-ent.co.jp/music/msa/asx/picz0023-1.asx

another cup of baileys downed, and another round of pain in the chest being unble to be tamed.
i'm so sorry that I couldn't control my emotions.
I'll be alright tomorrow

*あなたにあげるよ*

On 7th Feburary, the zi-gang had a cny gathering at xin's house! xD
We louhei-ed 3 times HAHAHA, then Dek got addicted to Wii. But then the highlight was that we took a group photo together, including celine! ;D
Too bad Chris couldn't come, but I'm sure there will be a next time.
Perhapes, at the zi-gang chalet? (:

These 2 weeks I've met up with aiai many times to eat good food. lolol. There's Delifrance, Menichi, ichiban sushi and botejyu/ajisen! Lol! Money flew and I defeinitely grew fat, but seriously its a good emo outing session with my aiai A__A. And we didn't go arcade ok, we are GOOD GIRLS ;D
Of course, eating outings won't be good withou critiques right =x

10 FEB: ICHIBAN SUSHI
highlight: WAGYU BEEF A__A

Since its Osaka street, they have osaka specialities (:
aiai pouting xD
my wagyu beef! I RATE 5STARS☆☆☆☆☆ ;D

12 FEB: BOTEJYUU/AJISEN
highlight: OKONOMIYAKI!　お好み焼き

Aiai looking at the menu. hehe
LOL this was out of boredom xDDD
Potato Tempura~ nice! (:
My mochi beef cheese okonomiyaki! Its nice but rather big. I recommend 2 people share
(i couldn't finish even though i was on an empty stomach)

Some time ago: DELIFRANCE
highlight: mushroom soup and garlic bread!

Aiai posing ;D
Me stealing the salmon A__A


And today is our beloved
VALENTINE'S DAY!
What do I feel about today? Hmm, I don't know haha. It does bring back some memories, but ultimately, I am working so I guess its easier to control some emotions =x


Sorry I can't help but post this :x So proud of it! xD
Really, with all the lag, we still managed to get 12 syncs! A___A
Haha, but it was one year ago after all...
And 2months since Japan.


*everytime i remember is another tug at the heart*

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

this song is really getting into me.
every tune is bringing back memories,
and every word is eating into my chest.
i never knew lost happiness till now.

*bring me back to those days*

And so I was eating my lunch as normal on Sunday, until this emo Jay Chou song played over the radio.

I TOTALLY LOST MY APPITITE -.-

I stared at my rice, then didn't eat it anymore. Memories just came crashing down and everything just seemed so blurred as the lyrics hit me. So there has always been this sore spot in me I never knew existed. How brilliant that this song had to push that stupid emo button.
Yayness for emo-ness.

*放手了后悔了 只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢?*

*even if I can't see you, I can feel your presence beside me*

On thursday, I sent Lain's package to Japan, which included his 15 Acash cards hahaha. I also managed to stuff in a box of pineapple tarts and prawn rolls A_Av. The queue at the post office was faster than I thought, so I had some spare time before school. Where else could I go right! LOL. Went over to CCK arcade, where I had the jubeat machine all for myself :D I think I played 10 games straight. LOL. Chiong to B-class.

After which I went to school, but in the end I skipped lecture to do my readings lol. Met up with my group partner to discuss about project that's due on Monday, and we got things pretty sorted out. Only thing is that there's one more last minute addition person to our group whose MIA... so lol, deciding if she should deserve the full credit of what we did. Hmm, Jap Class was fun as usual, time passed pretty fast and before I knew it was over x) I then went to find Aiai and we headed to JP for our dinner! During jap class Shuj messaged me said that if wanted to meet up for jubeat hahaha. Of course, Kint wanted too since he booked out that day, so I told them I was at JP. Hmm felt rather bad cause supposed to be a emo-outing for me and aiai, but aiai didn't seem to mind. Wabbit aka Corn came super late, like 8.30pm? while we were having dinner so he played first. Lol. That day alone spent over 100 bucks wuwuwu~

Kint and Aiai! xD


On friday I woke up at 2pm LOL. Pig pig~ tried to study abit before going CCK to meet Jojo for our lose weight session! A_Av Had a miss call from Corn and Jojo had a messaged from him that got us quite worried, but its good that all is fine now. Jojo and I had candlelight dinner at Delifrance~ ;D We really just took our time haha. Dad called me to buy yu sheng, so I went Sakae to buy. Hmm had to wait pretty long. Sorry Jojo ):

bored~
wanted to toupai but jojo found out LOL
our cake! :D

After collecting my yusheng we went back to arcade (what did you expect? LOL) but it was rather crowded. I left earlier cause Jojo still wanted to play haha. Chazers put 4 credits in the machine and I think Jojo got sian-ed diao. Lol nvm ask Corn help u you to take revenge~

Saturday passed by rather slowly in the office. I was slacking all the way and chatting online nyahaha. But I also tidied up the office ok! Now so clean. ;D
Looked through my old blog entries and got rather nostalgic. Wuwu. Compared to the rest of my friend's blogs, mine is relatively new cause its only 6months? Haha. I deleted my old blog btw, the http://ruroun-inuken-memories.blogspot.com is offically gone. So sorry for the stalkers out there but yup one less blog to stalk (and recall memories). lolol.
At night, I went to grandma's house for yusheng, and ate like 2 full plates of fried rice. Felt so bloated x_x Went home and was rather tired, so I fell asleep anyway cause someone wasn't online. But Aiai called me around 1am saying that she wanted to talk LOL. I forgot I left my msn on so I supposed she thought I was still online I guess. So yup, talked for awhile, then went back to sleep. Lol aiai. Cheer up okies? <3>

Lain just told me that he got the package aready. Yay! Lol he hasn't commented on the food yet hahaha. Oh well, hope he likes it. Today is a happy day ^^ (even though boss called me to add on work wuwuwu). Oh gawd I feel so sleepy. And I still have my assignment to do! Wuwuwu someone help me~ I wanna go arcade play jubeat~ *jubeat deprived* T_T


*looking back at memories is like looking at yourself from the other side of the glass*

Happy LUNAR New Year!

Wahaha, had my reunion dinner at my grandma's place. Only 5 of us though, since my uncle and aunt went back to China. Hmm, was a pretty cozy affair, and I enjoyed my grandma's dishes ^^ She's an awesome cook! :D

The first day was pretty hectic hahaha.
I visited my grandma again, had a light lunch and chatted for awhile. Oh oh oh, we took many pictures too! Haha. After the camwhoring session we headed to my mum's cousin's relative's house. Their snacks and tidbits were nice as they were handmade (: After awhile all my mum's siblings came too, and we took a picture together. Haha.

with mum (:
with dad (:
my grandparents! xD



After that was my aunt's house... practically did nothing but stone there. lol. The last stop was my cousin's house, where I had my dinner. Haha, it was pretty filling and they had some unique simple dishes like shabu beef! Haha and the soup was nice too~ too bad no pictures though haha.

Oh, I took one with my cousin (:


Around 9pm, we left and I made my way down to CCK to meet the zi-gang! Haha. My cousin who stayed near there gave me a ride. Her husband has a GPS system... that speaks in cantonese! LOL. Super cute.
Ok, not all of the zi-gang were there. There was me, kint, corn, jojo and joan. Haha. We played jubeat, and I couldn't resist the temptation so I played PIU with jojo in my dress LOL =x but at least I shed some of the fats that I gain that day ok! LOLOL. We left around 11plus, and by then there was no more EW train, so I stopped at Bukit Batok with Jojo and Joan planning to take 178. But wth no more bus! Wuwuwu~ so Joan and I shared a taxi. Actually Joan paid for it. Lol. Please remind me to return her change when I meet her again! Thanks Joan haha (:

smiles! :D
(shuj: PHOTOSHOP ME INNNNNNN)


The 2nd day of CNY~
Lain called me in the morning haha. My wake up call. Poor guy had a headache and couldn't go to work. Take care okies? (:

I visited my mum's good friend's grandma's house who's a nonya. She bakes superb snacks, cakes, and makes the tastiest porridge I've eaten throughout these CNY years I've visited her. Hahaha. This year there wasn't acha, but the spread was still alot! Omg coming here is to gain weight only. I had 2 helpings of porridge leh (and was VERY tempted to take one more serving Dx

the spread of handmade snacks!
porridgeeee


After that visit we made our way home to tidy up the house for the guests that would be visiting us later on. hahaha. Mum was nagging and nagging to make sure everything was spick and span. But of course things turn out ok haha. They had alot of fun playing the Wii and Wii Fit. I think it's the highlight of our house lah haha. Come our house is to play that only. Lol. I remembered last CNY one of my cousins played our Wii and bought his own the next day. SUPER FUNNY LOL.

Family Picture(:


We made our way to my mum's eldest sis's new house for dinner. It's also my married cousin's house who also bought the Wii lolol. So we bought the Wii Fit to play hahaha! Dinner was a rather casual affair. The younger kids went swimming while the adults did crap at the house. I played chess with one of the younger ones... and i won. LOL :x
Soon after we began playing Wii lololol. The rest left first, but my family stayed sinced they wanted to try the Wii Fit. I TELL YOU, TMR THEY SURE BUY. LMAO. We played
till 10.30pm plus before I told my mum I wanna go home. LOL. Tired le laaaah. haha.

So that concludes my Chinese New Year. Haha. Did you guys have fun too? I didn't take many pictures but seeing all my relatives again is a rather joyious event (: Time flies so fast! Its like... all my cousins are married, some just gave birth, and one is even pregnant. lolol. Technically, the next person in line to get married is... me. LOL. Wait long long arh.

And my tagboard suddenly so active. Shall reply tags here =O

@JoJo: Hahahahhaah noooo I don't think what I have dreamt will ever come true. But what I wished for came true aready xD

@Shayla: Lets feng diao tgt~~~ <3>

@xinhuan: LOL wah I didn't know NTU peeps stalked my blog too xD

@Max: Lol. Happy CNY. Yah DDR and PIU is much more fun hor =P

@Dek: LOL. It is cheap thrill la hahaha. Just hope he finds chooch to bao chou and not me~

@ce: that bt song I made you play on your radio blog last time laaaa :x

Omgawd, its 1.30am in the morning and my dad just fixed the Wii Fit ~_~ I remembered one night my mum came into my room and wagged a the Wii Fit box infront of me, talking in that 'sweet melodic' voice, "See what I bought~~~". Then I stared at her for awhile and said, "OMG. Why you buy?" LOL. She pouted (YES POUTED) and told me cause it was fun. wah lol pro. But Lain said it's fun too. Hahaha. Don't know... too lazy to try. Will try when I'm very very bored. Lalala~

*愛してるから離れる・・・か*